Sunday, June 11, 2006

Waiting...

Here we are 7 months LID. We are still waiting. I thought we'd know who Grace is by now, and be planning our travel. Well, we're not that close. The CCAA is just now giving out referrals for those that have a June 15 LID. So the wait is 12 months now, and there are rumors of even longer waits. I'm just hoping that we get our referral before the end of the year, and travel shortly into 2007. Who'd of thought it would be such a long wait when I start this whole thing back in April 2005.

I went home to visit my father, sister, and two brothers yesterday. It was a fun time. We all got together to give my dad a gift certificate for a two seater ride around the Indy 500 track in a race car. It was supposed to be a surprise, but it turns out my brother-in-law accidentally spilled the beans. The ride is scheduled for July 8, and we'll get to be there to watch. It will be exciting.

I had a good talk with my sister about her feelings about my mom dying. It seems harder for her since she was with my mom when she died. I understand better now her feelings. I just wish I could spend more time with her. I still miss my mom tremendously. I wouldn't have thought I would before she died, but I really do. My 9 year old really misses her too. She writes in her journal about her feelings, and it's so sweet to read. She's such a wonderful little girl - so loving and so emotional. My oldest is a joy too but in a different way. She's very contemplative and doesn't wear her emotions so openly. She's more like me in that she's more logical than emotional I think. But it may be too soon to tell. Motherhood is a joy. I really love both of them sooooo much, and I can't wait to be able to write about Grace and her personality. Lord, please let it be soon!